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Day 154 | Peep

a small white flower outside.

Blank stares on the air once again. I thought I just do this at the office but I am doing it now. I was thinking deeply that I forgot what was I really thinking. You know, the type that you’re poker-faced and your brain goes auto-F5 to slideshow snapshots of past and what-ifs for the future.

I wasn’t planning to do my 366 entry for today because we were busy today but now, I just can’t sleep - time check, 02:10am. 

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We really don’t know what will happen on the next days that’s why we should be careful in our actions today because it affects tomorrow. If sleep late today, I’ll wake up late tomorrow or be tired to move tomorrow. 

In the movie Back to the Future, they were able to travel to the past and the future. But they shouldn’t change anything in the past as it might affect the future like they shouldn’t have existed if that certain timeline entry was disturbed. But when they knew of what will happen in the future, they were immediately to the rescue to align things. 

But dah fictions. 

Who among us wants to ask for chances to peep what our future would be? Sometimes, we wish for it but if that’s possible I think it would be scary - you would know when you’ll expire. 

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Everything happens for a reason - I really believe in that but sometimes, just sometimes, just excuses to hard feelings. 

I want to know what’s for me in the future so I could decide well today. But sorry, it’s a no entry zone. I just have to think and think and think today because whatever I decide for today is how tomorrow is formed.

~Good mornight!

Day 153 | Autumn

orange flowers from a flower-bearing tree.
hehe I just don’t know what this is.

First day of June!

This photo might signify autumn right? because of the tangerine flowers that fell from its branches. But we only have rainy and sunny in the Philippines.

Autumn is the transition from summer to winter. 

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Like the earth, we also have seasons, more likely moods, but matters on the duration and timing. 

Good night earths!

Day 152 | Path

someone fast - walking.

Today is the end of May. 

I have noticed that the rain would visit IT Park at around 12nn to 2 pm - the time I am strolling around IT Park. 

Since I have a meeting tonight, I brought my camera instead of gym stuff. I went out during lunch break and took shots of IT Park at noon. 

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There might be more surprises there than here.

Everyday, we walk on routes depending to where we would go.

Today, this is his.

Mine? There too. Back to my cubicle to finish some tasks, as usual. I’m just not sure if I still want this path. Let’s try another path on the right time :)

Good night path takers!

Day 151 | Cold

the tree beside Asiatown, IT Park.

After having lunch, I sat near one of the fountains at i2. I was really amazed of the big fishes they have. We used to have fishes inside an aquarium but they eventually died. hehe. I was also watching the turtle’s struggle. The turtle moves slooooooow and I noticed, it has long ‘nails’.

When I stood, I noticed I had a cold back, I touched, and yes I had a wet back. My blouse and cardigan were wet hahah but it wan’t clear, that was a black cardigan. 

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I have been strolling every lunch break and got the chance to walk around IT Park. I would want to go away from this place but I don’t know where else to go aaaaand it would be better to have someone to be with me.

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Rainy days are here.

And yes, colder noon breaks for me. I bade goodbye to going out at lunch break to escape from the uber cold office and heat up outside.

Good stollers!

Day 150 | Older

A flower on our sala center table.

White flower -

The oil inside a small bottle that the oldies usually use. The distinct strong scent makes you connect it to the oldies.  Though there are also young people who use it - who are tagged as ‘karaang taw’ - mostly on headache, stomach pains and itch. It’s nice because it’s handy and effective most of the time. Its a matter of preference. But this is not the real white flower used to make the oil.

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Today is a day after, my friend, Khallel’s birthday. We had lunch and talked about a lot of stuff. About getting old but really about being in between being young and getting old.

I still want what I wanted yesterday and perhaps until the next week. I still wanted to escape but is still jaded. A good part in having someone to share insights with is when you realize you are the same and you reflect, not copy, on her next moves. 

It’s hard to be young and be older too.

Young, that you wanted to explore the world, literally and not, freely and older thinking about what’s next to this step, what’s after the travel, how could this benefit me, will there still be something for me after this trip.

Confused but can’t stop. The world is moving, I can smell the white flower scent on my skin. I’m not getting any younger.

But I still want to explore the world, literally and not.

Good night young old!

Day 149 | Day Dreaming

Just another day at work.

I couldn’t believe I am willing to risk my current and possible rate in replacement of a simple job. I know it couldn’t support my vices, wants and needs but this is not supporting what my heart wants.

So, what do I want then?

I wanted to cook, to bake, to arrange flowers, to plant, to work at a farm. I sound weird but I want physical jobs that I could work at. 

I think there are success stories in any field. I may not have a (possibly) high paying job anymore but with what I have, I will plant and nourish to make it grow multiple folds. 

I imagine myself owning businesses that could sustain my family - that I could buy what my mom and dad want, to travel around the world with my sister and see the sun rise and set.

This is still what I want, as of now. I’m afraid I would end up wanting to go back again the way I did in my current job. 

I longed for this job but when I was already nearing the portals, I wanted to go back but there’s no turning back unless I wanted to jump off the train. But I know for sure, if I will stop something, I must start another.

Let’s see what’s in store for us but as for now, I still have things to do in my workpool =)).

I’m day dreaming again.

Day 148 | Flexible

P5.00 candles.

We went to Simala today, a decision made just that morning. It was fun traveling in the comfort of your car because I can still continue my sleep inside. 

The last time I went here was during the beginning of my last semester as a college student. I even bought a Student’s Prayer and a yellow candle there.

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They have been selling candles with different colors. One color means different intention from the other - health, peace, and many more. 

Raise your hands to those who also buy these whenever you go to Simala! 

But there are also black/brown candles that are sold for 5 pesos inside the church.

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These candles are hard until they get heated - they cry, melt and bend. Even a hard heart can cry, melt and bend in suffering. 

These candles give us hope that in our prayers and intentions, we believe that we will be heard and answers are coming up if we listen.

These are the candles with colors

Good night!

Day 147 | Practice

my watch for years.

It was a gloomy day. It’s sad to see no sunlight for me to take photos. Weekends are the only days I could take morning shots unless I bring my camera with me at work :|

I was reading TIME Magazine when I saw a photo of a watch covering the whole spread. I went to the room and took a shot of my watch. Click click, looks at lcd, nothing special, plugs usb cord, ctrl + x, ctrl + v, open GC, open tumblr, click +Upload photo.

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Sometimes, we could pass by things that could make us feel we can also do that. 

Seeing a person running makes you think you can also run like her.

Watching at a person carving a wood makes you feel it’s easy and that you can carve woods too.

Looking at how a fisherman catch a fish makes you feel you could catch one too.

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But in a few minutes of pacing, you realize you’re panting.

Few strikes of carving tools wasted a block of wood.

And you realized you already threw a lot of baits to the sea.

Not everything is as easy as how we see it. We could do it if we are capable and are willing to practice more.

Good day practice-cioners!

Day 146 | Revive

stuffed toy from a claw crane.

I have been collecting stuffed toys from claw cranes since senior college. I was just fascinated on how I could get toys with just 5 pesos hehe but sometimes you could really spend more. 

But I just got his stuffed toy above with only 5 pesos. On the first try, I immediately got a good grip of it and viola!

I know we can afford buying these, but the feeling of accomplishment is different :)) CHAAAR You feel like as boss!

It has been long since I went here to play the claw crane. I just went here after eating snacks after work and bought few tokens, and look what i got.

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My office mate asked his seatmates, ‘what is not searchable in google’. I got ideas like phone numbers, names and email addresses because I tried searching for an email address but got no search results. Because of that, I tried ‘googling’ my name - Annie Lyn Bandies. I saw my sulit.com.ph ads, datalogics, facebook and flickr account and some unknown people. But what shocked me was the second from the last search result - http://barpie.multiply.com/journal/item/3/Treasures_in_my_pocket_by_annielyn_bandies

I didn’t know Barbeth posted this or I just forgot.

I read few lines and laughed - bookmarked it and will get back to it soon (I was at work when I saw it ;D) I even don’t know why I used this word to describe this and that person. HAHA. 

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Some things just bring back memories effortlessly and it’s nice to do those things once in a while.

Hello new stuffed toy! 

Day 145 | Initiative and Risk

my hand against our main door.

Going up and down the building, I use the elevator when I am in a hurry. In going up, I stand at the back since I am still going to the 12th floor. And in going down, I stand near the door, to go out immediately haha. 

A responsibility of the people near the door is to open and/or close the elevator door. Once you see someone approaching but the door closes, reach for the <|> button to let the elevator door remain open.

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I was at the side of the buttons and the elevator was already tight, I can’t even see people outside. 

The next seen was something like the photo above. I had the snapshot in my brain and copied it by taking a photo at home. It wasn’t like that because the elevator has two doors, I only had one. But the fingers I knew are really like that.

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A man’s fingers were stuck at the elevator as it closes. Everyone knew that the elevator opens when something is between its doors. The people(kikay girls) at the middle just stared and shouted, I looked and was like O.O then presses the <|> button. Dah, they should have reached for the button instead shouting. hehe anyway, they might found it far for their reach or was just blanked due to the scene.

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We might be the one who opened the elevator or the one who took the risk.

Sometimes we risk our fingers just to ride the elevator and reach our destination immediately - not anymore waiting for another elevator to come. But we could have used our fingers to press the  button outside rather than placing it between the doors. But dah, doing so works oftentimes :)) just risky.

He even murmured in a low voice upon getting in, “dugaya sad naka detect oi, napiit na nuon ko hehe”. 

Good day elevator riders!